Contemplating

So i went out with afiqah and dee today. Its been way too long since i've met dee. And it really was so good to see deedee. Huda though, didnt come. Hope to see her soon.
Anyway, we explore ion and orchard central which is super big ad super duper high which triggers some of my fears like heights and perhaps triggered a new fear which is longscalatorphobia. Its like long+escalator+phobia, get it?
I decided to cut my hair. I will not contemplate any further cause i WILL change my mind and i will never change my hairstyle and i will look the same for the next 10 years maybe.
The depressing phase has past, so i'm feeling very happy today. Ecstatic i tell you. Though there was one night i had a horrible dream. Though it wasnt a really a dream, just a reminder maybe. THAT was depressing. Really. I do not want to feel that ever again.
Pictures~~

noises

It rained in the morning. It was such a good day to be sleeping when my neighbour upstairs started drilling into her walls making so much noise making me so aggravated as if she was drilling into my ears.
So i quickly bathed and put on some clothes and went out by myself. These days, i dont really care whether i'm alone or not. Alone time is good.
Anyway, i'm going to go continue reading now. Books are like a drug to me. So addictive, and so quickly, i escape reality.

Disoriented

So, i have been having horrible body aches due to my illness. I'm having a fever and a flu which makes doing anything a torture. So throughout the day, i've been laying in bed doing nothing but reading my books.
Yesterday i felt even worst. And to make things worst i was out. Beds were out of reach and walking was just painful. Even sitting for too long hurts.
Anyway, i watched where got ghost last night. The movie was supposed to be funny and not scary. It was funny, but somehow even comedies found a way to haunt me. And it wasnt a complete comedy, it was a homedy, horror+comedy, so ive been told.
And i got the worst lashing ever from my mother for always coming home late. So i'm thinking of being a good girl, get back into her good books.
I'm going to sleep now. 4 panadols dont exactly help you keep awake.

With a blink of the eye

These few days, i've let time pass so easily, burying myself in my story books getting lost, often forgetting reality.
I'm currently reading new moon, since the movie is coming out soon. I get so caught up with all these fictional stories that hours pass with a blink of the eye.
So i finally decided to upload some pictures into my almost dead blog, perhaps add some colour to a black and white picture.
With the semestral exams burdening me, i feel more stressed and occasionally find comfort in my secrets(you know).
Afiqah says my blog is becoming depressing. I think its the books ive been reading. I usually update when i'm at the sad part, so my posts end up being very empty and depressing.
Heres some light.~

Pictures

I didnt realise how long i havent updated my blog. Its dying slowly without me realising.
Anyway, I feel pretty troubled right now. The images that play in my mind every second, thoughts about every single thing this world has to offer, or not.
I realised that all movies that were made are love stories. Whether it is the love for a person, a country or even an animal. It got me thinking that it is love that keeps us alive and keeps us wanting to live. So keep loving people, and keep livin'.
I feel real emotional these days. Nothing really is causing it but maybe just the thought of me not doing anything much to make this world better. Maybe its time i better myself. Small steps are key to reaching goals that are not written.
Stop coming home late would be my priority right now. The rest would come with it.
While writing all these down, i'm getting ready to go out again. I just came back home and have been out since yesterday.
Maybe stop contradicting myself should be my priority.

dead end

My blog will soon become pictureless once again, boring and so plainn.

So i'm going out again later to watch a midnight movie. Although i'm super tired i'm being a good friend by not paitao-ing.

Thursday i had fencing which was painful and it when the feeling of unimaginable exhaustion started. To add to that, i went for rock climbing on friday since i didnt climb on wednesday. So i'm pretty much dying by then. Then somebody had to drag me to farrer park to rock climb at 9 am. ON A SATURDAY. Saturday is like the day when i wake up at 2pm and be a pig at home. So i got back at arnd 6plus in the afternoon and now, i'm getting to go out again.

This is exhausting. Semestral exams are coming and my knowledge of chemistry is still at o levels level. Fake, maybe i know a little more.

Oh my ipod has hundreds of movies i tell you. Can become cinema already. Fake again. It has maybe like 11 movies. Still alot right. Its hard work okay downloading and converting the movies. I can grow a beard waiting for it to both download and convert.

I think ive become some kind of ipod geek.