It wasn't supposed to turn out this way

So i havent updated in forever.
Came back from Bali last friday. And i will never get tired of saying how fun bali was. Its a whole different society there, one that has been misunderstood. The people there are great and you think that going out at night is dangerous but really, its as dangerous as Singapore. Except maybe they're target you since you're tourist but usually they'll go for the angmohs.

Anyway, havent been working much the past few days. I think i got too used to life in bali.

Right now, i should be worrying about my portfolio which is not progressing at all. Maybe i have 1 or 2 pieces, the most 2 pieces of art work. But i've got 8 more to go and i dnt have alot of time. Looks like i have to cut down on work, cut down on going out.

This is stressful. And looking at everyone else going to school especially those in SP... Its depressing the shit out of me.
These days, i have a lot to be depressed about. And quite frankly, i don't think anyone really understands.

It's friday and i feel like having some fun.

Alone at 12

So since my little sister's laptop is on right now, i shall update my long dead blog.
So i went out with my dear dear afiqah, who i have not seen for like a week now. it may seem short for some but it feels real long for me. We caught the movie remember me which was the worst movie ever i must add. The ending was shit and i am unhappy.

Oh, i got rejected by SP by the way, hopefully my appeal letter will shock and awe them and they'll be forced to take me because of my pitifulness.

I applied for a few private school as well. They're kind of my plan B. I'm supposed to do a portfolio to get into La Salle and take a test to get into nafa. I have never felt so unwanted in my entire life.

Right now, i'm tired and emotional for a lot of reasons. I'm stressed and undecided. I feel like shit. The movie i watched just now didnt make me feel any better. I should have caught a comedy instead of a depressing movie.
I'm waiting for something and that something surely is taking its time. I should go wash up and get some rest maybe star planning my portfolio. Lets not waste any more time.

OH BALI IS IN 2 WEEKS PEOPLE AND I-AM-EXCITED. All you losers would be in singapore and i'll be surfing the waves of bali... or not. Maybe i'll just watch. I dnt like slimy wet things that are in the ocean, like fishes and SHARKS. You knw SHARKS. SHARKS like in jaws which eat people or bite off parts of their body. So i'll just stay where its safe.
I'm a pussy, whatever.

Neglect

Its been a hundred years since i updated my blog.
Firstly, its because SOMEBODY took my laptop and failed to give it back to me till 1 week later. So here i am so many weeks later, updating my-almost-dead blog. I shall revive it with pictures and my unlaziness if there is such a thing.
I actually thought of deleting my blog but maybe not. There are pictures here that arent in my lappy anymore.
So i've been working so much that i'm exhausted like literally falling sick because of it. I had nose bleeds, coughs, flu and fevers. It has been the worst health week of my life and ive never felt this exhausted before. Even zara wasnt this tiring.
Maybe its because when i worked at zara, all i did was eat sleep and work.
I have different commitments now and it is exhausting i tell you.
Oh today is 28 and its kinda a special day. But i'm shy ya know. Soo... whatever. Hahaha.
I have a ton of pictures i want to upload but i dont knw where to start. You see, when i said a ton of pictures i literally meant a ton.
I'm kinda really bored right now.
Maybe more some other time. The wait is killing me.

Saturday afternoon

Its a saturday and i'm at home watching ghost rider on AXN. Nicholas cage is kinda very hot, except for the face. He's got a good body.

I still dont have my lappy. I really miss me lappy, Its been almost a week since ive seen it. And my father's lappy is soo useless. The screen screw is loose so when i move the laptop the screen falls backwards.

Watching nicholas cage on ghost rider is turning me on.

I dont really want to update my blog right now. Bye

The blackest lily

I want to upload the pictures. I really do, but i'm really lazy. So maybe some other day.

I'm actually excited for school to start...again. I'm just real anxious right now to know what course i got in. Supposedly, i'm getting the results today. I havent checked, so i'm gonna check now.

Okay my results are in april. What the fuck. I dnt think i can tahan the anxiety. I'm going to have panic attacks.

Fuckkkkkkkkkk, i want to cry. :((

Hip Hip

I just read afiqah's blog and it depressed the shit out of me. Hahahaha.

A lot happened during the past week. Actually a lot happened last weekend. Which was the birthday chalet. Tiring i tell you. I didnt sleep till 6+ in the morning and woke up at 8. When i got home i had a massive headache, so i slept for 3 hours and went out again to watch Its complicated.
Whichhhhhh, was a great movie. Its so witty and funny.
My taste in movies are becoming similar to a 40 year old woman.
I watched legion last night. You don't know how scared i was. And it wasn't even that scary.
But watching that show got me thinking about the end of days. How i haven't done anything to better myself. And how i have only done things to make my place in hell permanent.
And what scares me the most, there are some things ive done that i don't feel regret for.
I'm uploading the chalet pictures into acap's facebook. Cause my facebook is wayyyyy too dangerous. Hahahaha.

Corinne bailey rae released a new album which i fell in love with. Especially this song called i'll do it all again. Take some time listen, will ya?

Happy birthday Acap!

First of all, happy birthday acap. I'm a very shy person. So the mushy things i shall do it privately. Here, it'll just be happy birthday. Hahahhaha.
Anyway, i'll just keep it short. Cause even while typing all this i'm feeling real shy. Hahaha.
Okay. Thats it, i shall not go on any further.

I love you. Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehhee.